The happiness of a child can never be felt as you grow older.
That’s the beauty of innocence.
No matter what people do to you, no matter what the situation is.
Do not let betrayel, jealously, deception, anger, do not let your emotions take control over you.
And no matter what situation you are in, do not let them take your innocence away from you.
If you have a family, you are blessed.
Wonderful friends to share your happiness with, you are blessed.
Someone to talk your heart out to, you are blessed.
You can call them up at 4am just to cry, laugh or to tell them you can’t sleep, you are blessed.
Your father who still works hard to support his family, you are blessed.
A broken heart? You are blessed.
If it rains and the only shelter you’ve got is the one under a tree, you are blessed.
One meal a day? You are blessed.
When you open your door and your dog runs out to greet you, you are blessed.
Someone to lean on to no matter what, someone to place your broken heart in, you are blessed.
Someone who loves you, you are blessed.
Loving anyone? You are blessed.
We are all blessed in many different ways but often and always forget how blessed we are. Always remember whatever situation you are in, be it a bad or a good one, it will change.
So if you’re having a bad one, it will change one day.
And if you’re having a good one, enjoy it.
Because always remember that there is someone out there wishing what you have at this very moment.
You are blessed.
Isn’t it funny how life works?
The ones we trust teach us betrayal.
The broken hearted teach us love.
The ones without food teach us hunger.
People who disrespect us teach us to disown our ego.
The egoistic ones teach us to be respectful.
Our grandparents teach us that amidst all apprehension, love is true and lasts, even after death.
Death teaches us how to live.
Money teaches us that everything can be bought in this world. And with that too, comes a hefty price that cannot be paid with money.
The kids at the village taught me happiness.
And the cold hard ground I slept in taught me simplicity.
Most of all, life taught me how to live in the best possible way ever. Through those whom I thought will never hurt me. Because those lessons are the ones that you’ll never forget. Those are the ones you’ll treasure and learn from.
And because that’s how life teaches you to be you, live you, love you.
We’ve all been there.
Spending countless nights thinking of reasons,
Why did we go our separate ways?
Where was the love we once had?
What about you understanding my point of view?
Why? Why?
Closure, I feel is a very very important factor towards the process of healing. But not everybody is lucky enough to sit down with their exes, in a park, with the wind blowing, basically a surreal setting that we see in movies. Life doesn’t work that way.
Most of the time, we do not have a chance to say our final goodbyes. We do not speak our opinions, we bury the voice, the one demanding for questions to be answered. Instead we do not ask why, we leave and then two years later realize we need answers.
So here are some things I learnt from closure.
(1) It doesn’t help.
(2) It doesn’t help because you will not hear the answers you are looking for.
(3) The answer being, you want to hear your ex say ‘It’s okay, I’m still as crazy as ever in love with you and we will work this out and be happy together all over again.’
(4) Back to no 2. You’ll never hear that again.
(5) It does help you in a way that you’ll be able to see that the person who you once love and still love has moved on from you.
(6) And you’ll feel sorry for yourself.
(7) And pity yourself, you’ll feel pathetic and wonder why in the first place you needed an answer.
(8) Because the answer has slapped you in the face.
(9) Things have changed, he/she has moved on without you and you should too.
(10) You’ll pick yourself up once again and never look back.
And when you do, you realize you never needed that closure. That you are fine the way you are.
So that’s what we did last weekend.
View from our room
Seremban is the capital of the Malaysian state of Negeri Sembilan and there’s a lot to do and see in this beautiful place. Mainly everyone comes here for the sun, sand and the sea but at night there is also a night market. Here are some snippets from our trip.
FOOD!
Look’s like all we did is eat. Oh wells, people who love to eat are always the best people.
Because he is not the person you fell for in the beginning.
Because he will not pick up your calls no matter how many times you call him.
Because he does not care even if you convince yourself that he does.
Because he does not think about you once though he crosses your mind a thousand times.
Because the love that was once there is not here now.
Because he just sees through you while you’re standing right in front of him.
Because he does not reply to your texts, the ones filled with questions, with emotions, with rawness, with anger, with love, with doubts.
Because he does not react when you pour your heart out to him.
Because he tells your friends a different story.
Because he is different.
Because you do not know who this person is anymore.
Because you deserve better.
Because there is someone out there looking for you.
Because you deserve respect.
Because you need to love yourself.
Because you need to love again.
Everyone has been through heartbreak. You are not alone in this journey and you will get there one day. Till then, cry your heart out, go on random trips, bash him/her up (just kidding), laugh out loud, do whatever you wanted to, go wherever you wanted to, live life your way and love will come knocking on your door one day. And when you open it, I promise you will love all over once again. This time without the pain, without the doubts, without the fights. With a lover, a friend, you will love all over again like you’ve never fell in love before.
Its June!
June is my favorite month of the year probably as its my birthday month, hmm not probably, lets make that an assured statement shall we?
June is the most favouritest month of the year for me because its my birthday month!!! Woohooooo (Yeah I spelled that wrongly on purpose because June is my month and I am a rebel and I can do anything).
Apart from my birthday month, I feel connected to June because of its personality. Its weird how we feel and gravitate towards certain things in life and I drift towards June. Its become a habit that once the new year arrives, I countdown the days to June.
June is special to me as it represents me. Though life and its experiences have changed me to become a stronger, matured, somewhat a toned down person, deep inside, I am always the child, the one who wonders, the dreamer, believer, adventurer, always asking and seeking what is next. June is full of warmth and summer and beach and sand and sun and waves and fun and all things nice.
June also makes me realize half the year is gone and how time flies, it makes me, somewhat forces me to sit down and plan my life ahead, to have goals and dreams and aspirations and to find ways to seek them. I find balance in June and I wish everyone a happy June and may all your dreams and hard work and inspiration and love and life and everything you ever need in life come to you.
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